Feeling Small

I am beginning to have a series of dreams again. This time it’s not with clowns and skeletons as its always been, but now with giants and mazes. I have had three dreams so far.

In the first dream I met two giants. They had to be at least 30 feet tall. They were both wearing bright fluffy gowns, somewhat like wedding gowns but one of them was in pink and the other in purple. They were brighter than anything else around them.  Although a bit frightened when they approached me, I just stood there looking up at them talking to them. I don’t remember what words were shared, but I do remember their gowns and there faces vividly.

The second dream consisted of multiple giants. Some I seemed to have somewhat of a relationship with, as though I had been friends with them for quite some time. And others I did not recognize. There was a huge diversity of people and giants just walking around the town as if it was normal. Everyone had accepted people as they were. Although this town wasn’t a town at all, it was a maze of alleyways. I was in a very uncomfortable environment. Dumpsters and newspapers were everywhere and I seemed to be hitting the dead ends more then you could imagine.  But I just continued walking around calmly and communicating with the people and giants around me as though I was not lost at all.

The third dream consisted of only the giants and me. At this point I could recognize all of them, some of them imitated some of the people that I know in my conscious life.  I was a little more uncomfortable with the maze this time because I was aware that I was lost, and I was the only one that was in the maze.  I could see my friends’ heads up above the walls in the distance, but I was basically an ant to all of them. The giants were much bigger than they were before. I screamed and yelled for them, but none of them could hear me. I ran and I ran, but only hit dead end after dead end.  I was beginning to think that maybe they weren’t growing, but I was shrinking.

I guess everything appears bigger than me in my life right now, and I have no idea where to go next.  It truly terrifies me.